Straight from my diary, no edits. The eldest and likely the angriest song on my third album. I was in a twisted way, where I thought myself to be smarter and sicker than the man I was dating. I also thought I could fix him. Turns out only two of the three were true – depending on who you ask. I rarely play this song live because of the intense contrast from chorus to verse. Plus, there’s the whole trumpet solo. Before I met Samuel, I opted for playing the “mouth trumpet”, a skill I picked up whilst recording my second album a cappella. Thank god he was able to play the actual trumpet part I wrote. I think it sounds a lot better when he does it.